[She nods to confirm his statement. While she didn't understand what he said earlier about three-dimensional space, she understands the vocabulary this time.
She stares at his floating hand for a moment, not out of fear, but with fascination. A tiny smile forms on her lips before she takes it into an awkward handshake.]
That's quite a name. I apologize that I can't remember our first encounter. Lucy and I usually write notes to let each other know what happened while the other was asleep, but she hasn't had a chance to do so yet since I've been awake.
[It hadn't quite been a handshake he'd been requesting, as evidenced by his eyes widening briefly, but it still accomplishes what he'd wanted. he sets their palms together and laces his fingers between hers. His grip is loose, not meant to capture--she can easily pull her hand away from it if it makes her uncomfortable. Because while their brief contact from before had restored enough Chroma for him to be able to move his hands in this manner, it's still low, and even if it takes a bit longer with just their hands, it will still generate enough eventually.]
Had you the capability, would you could consolidate these partitions?
[Now that she has an idea of what he's capable of, and with him not touching her face, Nyuu isn't as scared of zaShunina's hands as she was before. She allows him to lace their fingers, even bringing her free hand into the mix to cup his.
She shakes her head without any hesitance.]
No. Even though we share this body, I have my own life.
[There's a small pause before she adds with a hint of fear coloring her voice:]
I don't want to disappear.
[She doesn't even know if that's possible, but she didn't want to find out.]
Disappear? [The idea hadn't even occurred to him. Lucy... Nyuu isn't human, but perhaps Diclonii are similar enough that running multiple simultaneous partitions would be too much for them to handle.]
It is possible to manage multiple individual personalities simultaneously. [Even if he can't do anything about it directly, he can at least present his own perspective.] It is not guaranteed you would disappear. [He won't promise it, however. In all things, nothing is ever 100%.
[The risk is unacceptably high. zaShunina thinks he understands. But, well, this had all been little more than a thought experiment anyway.]
It is a defense mechanism. [His hand squeezes hers a little tighter. The connection point is warm, the nerves in his hand sending pleasurable signals back down his arm.]
[A fracture in communication. Lucy isn't interested in communicating with her other personality? Why? It seems to zaShunina that losing such a substantial amount of information when the two switch would be less than ideal.]
I offer a suggestion--a messenger. Something that can't be ignored. [Something more persistent than a note that can easily be disregarded.]
I don't think that's a good idea. Lucy can be very violent. It's not just from testimony that I've heard from others, but--
[She swallows the lump forming in her throat.]
There have been times in the past where I've awakened and seen the evidence on my clothes.
[She'll never forget the very first time she saw such a thing during her first mission with Audentes. Her white uniform had been caked with so much blood that it had been stained red, and the bitter metallic scent had overwhelmed her senses.]
[She hadn't seemed violent when they'd spoken before, but as one who isn't human himself, it is difficult for him to judge others. There's no way he could have known that she shared a body with another personality at the time, either.]
Then a loss of information may be unavoidable. [If notes are ignored and a messenger would end messily, it may just have to be something Nyuu had to deal with.]
I do not. [He doesn't see Lucy as a threat, either. The vectors she'd shown him had many potential applications, but he doesn't worry about their capacity to damage him--as far as he knows, there is nothing that can hurt him so long as his Chroma levels remain high.
He won't fear her, and neither will he fear Lucy.]
[She stops trying to hide her eyes behind her bangs, eyes that were now filled with a glimmering hope. Her grip on his hand tightens even more with the excitement, but she soon catches herself and eases her hold.]
Yes. [He doesn't chide her for her enthusiasm. Her grip doesn't hurt, and should she somehow manage to squeeze tight enough that it could hurt, she would discover exactly why he doesn't fear her. No, the look he gives her for her apology is simply a soft smile--perhaps a bit uncanny and artificial if she has the eye to distinguish it, but one he hopes will serve to allay her fears.]
[It isn’t the lack of a wince from her earlier death grip, or the slight traces in the smile he gives her—she’s too relieved to notice. It’s the power he displayed earlier that clues Nyuu that he likely isn’t human. Nyuu would be a terrible hypocrite if she allowed such things to bother her, though, which is why she releases zaShunina’s hand to throw herself at him in a hug.]
Thank you, zaShunina-san!
[It’s full of nothing but good vibes and warm feelings, and this time, she does rest her chin on his shoulder.]
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Date: 2019-03-29 06:16 am (UTC)[She nods to confirm his statement. While she didn't understand what he said earlier about three-dimensional space, she understands the vocabulary this time.
She stares at his floating hand for a moment, not out of fear, but with fascination. A tiny smile forms on her lips before she takes it into an awkward handshake.]
That's quite a name. I apologize that I can't remember our first encounter. Lucy and I usually write notes to let each other know what happened while the other was asleep, but she hasn't had a chance to do so yet since I've been awake.
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Date: 2019-03-29 02:12 pm (UTC)Had you the capability, would you could consolidate these partitions?
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Date: 2019-03-30 03:29 am (UTC)She shakes her head without any hesitance.]
No. Even though we share this body, I have my own life.
[There's a small pause before she adds with a hint of fear coloring her voice:]
I don't want to disappear.
[She doesn't even know if that's possible, but she didn't want to find out.]
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Date: 2019-03-30 04:58 am (UTC)It is possible to manage multiple individual personalities simultaneously. [Even if he can't do anything about it directly, he can at least present his own perspective.] It is not guaranteed you would disappear. [He won't promise it, however. In all things, nothing is ever 100%.
Of course, this is all just hypothetical.]
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Date: 2019-03-30 05:38 am (UTC)[She shakes her head again, but more vigorously this time.]
Besides, I can't control the personality switches.
[She wishes she could, if just to keep Lucy contained so she wouldn't kill anyone.]
Although, I've noticed it tends to happen when my life is danger, but sometimes it happens outside of a life threatening situation as well.
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Date: 2019-03-31 12:35 am (UTC)It is a defense mechanism. [His hand squeezes hers a little tighter. The connection point is warm, the nerves in his hand sending pleasurable signals back down his arm.]
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Date: 2019-04-02 03:21 am (UTC)Even I don't know what it is for sure. I haven't understood a lot of things ever since I first learned of Lucy.
[Her eyes cease staring at her lap to flick up at him instead.]
I've tried asking her questions through our notes in the past, but she never answers them.
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Date: 2019-04-03 03:55 pm (UTC)I offer a suggestion--a messenger. Something that can't be ignored. [Something more persistent than a note that can easily be disregarded.]
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Date: 2019-04-03 07:21 pm (UTC)[She swallows the lump forming in her throat.]
There have been times in the past where I've awakened and seen the evidence on my clothes.
[She'll never forget the very first time she saw such a thing during her first mission with Audentes. Her white uniform had been caked with so much blood that it had been stained red, and the bitter metallic scent had overwhelmed her senses.]
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Date: 2019-04-08 02:55 pm (UTC)Then a loss of information may be unavoidable. [If notes are ignored and a messenger would end messily, it may just have to be something Nyuu had to deal with.]
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Date: 2019-04-08 09:04 pm (UTC)[Her eyes look up at him pleadingly.]
I won’t blame you if you see me as dangerous, but please understand. I’m not like Lucy. I couldn’t be violent against anyone.
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Date: 2019-04-09 03:46 am (UTC)He won't fear her, and neither will he fear Lucy.]
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Date: 2019-04-09 03:56 am (UTC)[She stops trying to hide her eyes behind her bangs, eyes that were now filled with a glimmering hope. Her grip on his hand tightens even more with the excitement, but she soon catches herself and eases her hold.]
Ah, sorry.
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Date: 2019-04-09 04:03 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-04-09 04:41 am (UTC)Thank you, zaShunina-san!
[It’s full of nothing but good vibes and warm feelings, and this time, she does rest her chin on his shoulder.]